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Friday, October 16th, 2009
4:29 pm	Fo Serious I don't know why but "Defying Gravity" helps me to write (well at least to a point, and I don't know if its good writing but eh). Thanks Kristin Chenoweth and Idina Menzel for the writing magic. Current Mood: and feeling ill Current Music: "defying gravity" (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 20th, 2009
1:46 am	possible tmi work meeting tonight. outside. really really cold. had to wrap aprons around me. really had to pee. windy. in skirt. potential doom. earlier in day call from manager- present back to school stuff at entire store meeting. when on phone distracted by different manager trying to talk to me. not sure what is going on. forgot to bring out cart so had to scrape it across the uneven pavement. totally interrupted owner talking. holding skirt while presenting. foot in mouth. repeat. repeat. people laughing. not in good way. in you equal stupid way. foot in mouth once more for good measure. might have made manager look bad. sit down quickly. bad. everyone else pretty good. work sucks. in other news my brain may explode. good night. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009
9:44 pm	Question of the Day! What do you do when you don't know if your medication is working or not? And more importantly if its making things better or worse? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 14th, 2009
4:44 am	Random Things Bali, China, and HK were awesome please don't ever make me spend three weeks alone with my brother again... although it could have been worse why does family make me feel like I'm an idiot/an asshole/other negative things time differences and jet lagged ness suck i want to be alone/surrounded by people i'm too afraid to do what i want to do because it will be difficult, and if I don't like it then the world will come crashing down contrary to some people's beliefs I have no legitimate/bankable skills I don't know where I'm going, as a result I don't know what to do I'm not good at living spontaneously and in the lifestyle that popular culture wants people to believe 20somethings live in (aka drinking, job to job, meaningless relationships, having no concrete plans, hanging out with the uber artsy kids who support their contemporary paintings made out of fur, yarn and horse shit by working in an independent bookstore/coffehouse/office, etc.) I have NO plans and that makes me itchy I'm over thinking everything I want to go somewhere and do something that only exists in poorly written novels that are meant to entertain housewives in bland sterile suburbia for under 6 bucks (and no they are not romance novels, although I'm not ruling that out) I am like the giving tree and I let people do whatever they like and walk all over me, soon there will be nothing left, but i don't really mind I like to think that i could live simply, but I know that would not make me happy family makes me feel inferior i try too hard and rarely get anything in return I feel like I am trying to make up for something, but i don't know what it is Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 9th, 2009
12:13 am	5 possible futures 1. More school. Pros - Parental financial assistance - i get it Cons - what do you do after? - lots of money - what do i study? (I would like either international politics, historical events viewed through varying political theory paradigms, the creation of identity in multiracial people, or how identity effects politics) - tests, applications, essays about why i'm fantastic 2. Marry Wealthy Pros - no need to work Cons - most likely will be an old dude - need to find wealthy man - no self fulfillment 3. Marry and have a mormon quantity of children Pros - no work... but... Cons - children - pain of childbirth - the dude would probably be religious to have that many kids... or conservative - children - be stuck at home with children 4. Rehab Pros -they will take care of me - probably come out with some awesome stories - meet really random people - have a pseudo rehab family Cons - must create addiction (this will probably be relatively easy) 5. Portland Cons - real world - Jeff is there - I know no one - I don't know the city - need to find housing - need to find job - need to figure out what to do - its kinda sketch (the strip club to everything else ratio is kinda high) - its different Pros - Jeff is there - its different - relatively less expensive big city Obviously Rehab is the clear winner, with Portland and married with a thousand kids coming in last. I think my hand has been forced. Current Mood: angry Current Music: lethal weapon 4- Jet Li is such a bad ass (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, December 26th, 2008
2:34 pm	i am so tired of drama. i want to go hermit but i can't, i'm stuck at home. Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 4th, 2008
1:55 pm	PS The guy a few desks down is wearing way too much beige. (Comment on this)
1:49 pm	Its been decided I'm not leaving the library until the body of my asian american essay is done. And I'm not going to worry if I talk more about myself then relating the info to myself. Because its funny and I should get extra credit for not writing a boring ass paper. She should thank me damnit! I have also decided that I will write my mythology paper with the same kind of disregard towards instructions. I just want to hand it in and be done with it already!!!! After that 4 midterms. And then I'm done. This is how the next week is probably looking. Friday- nothing I must recover! Saturday Mythology. Sunday Asian American Studies and Mythology. Monday Political Science. Tuesday. Mythology and Political Science. Wednesday. Mythology final, Asian American Studies Final, PoliSci Final. Thursday Sociology. Friday Sociology Final. Saturday Die. Clean. See People. Sunday Pack until I die. Ughhh I'm soooo fucking tired. And i've been listening to Defying Gravity nonstop. Its kinda sick. like me. Also its not ok to use your outside voice for 10 minutes in the Quiet Study Area in the Library. We're here for quiet! We even came up to the 4th floor for quiet. So Shut your damn pie hole. Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 2nd, 2008
8:59 pm	Motivation why you leave now?? Uggghhh. Why can't I write this fucking paper? Why Why Why?!!! I just need to sit and do it, but I can't bring myself to do it, which is such bullshit because I have this paper (which is for a 101 class but is overly complicated and bullshitty), and another paper (which I'm probably underestimating) and four tests and I'm fucking done. Done. Done done done done. Not like done for break, but done. I will have my BA. So I just need to fucking do this. Must. Write. Paper. Of. Doom. Times. Two. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: defying gravity (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 26th, 2008
4:23 am	how do you know when you've gone too far? why does that make me so nervous? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 3rd, 2008
11:33 pm	I am totally a hobbit and Davis is totally the Shire. All I want to do is be in Davis, have it be a miserably rainy day, and watch all of the extended LOTR. And have a hobbitty in door picnic. Instead tomorrow will most likely consist of feeling like death, sitting through a really long lecture (2 hours), going to a quiz section where I am utterly clueless, trying to get a new id/bus pass, going to another really long lecture (hour and a half), waiting forever for the bus and then trying to work on my project but instead being distracted by the election. God willing it turns out well and Obama wins. In other news school blows. o wait thats not news, thats just stating the obvious. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: return of the king, extended edition (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 24th, 2008
1:12 am	Things on my mind - 2 page papers can suck it, its so friggin difficult to construct a decent and comprehensive book review that covers centuries of Mexican history in 2 pages - i just want to sleep and not go to school anymore - ever have one of those thoughts like "It would be super creepy if X was to occur" And you know its not going to happen, but then you start doubting that. before you know it all the lights are on and you're twitching... thats right... twitching! - There is a table at the library where I manage to get a lot of work done, I shouldn't have left it this afternoon.... - I really really really want a spa day... massage, pedi, mani, facial, and something involving either mud, bark, green tea, excessive heat, or somethign scientifically questionable (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008
1:44 am	Yarg. So for Prague there is a pre departure seminar... yay... but wait no, someone misled me. So my Prague trip is through a dept on campus called CHID, when I was registering for classes for this quarter I found a CHID class for a pre departure seminar to Prague. I e-mailed one of the UW coordinators to ask if this was actually going to happen, because no one had told me about it. He said no and that I would be informed about meeting dates at a later time.... So two weeks ago I got an email about the dates for a series of meetings... now I couldn't go to the first meeting because I had to go home, so I emailed the instructor about the absence and then forgot about it because the information wouldn't be relevant until May. So.... I had to go get a course pack for this seminar and they are asking me what class its for. So I explain its CHID and Prague and its not really a class... O wait, it is! Now this blows because I am on a very tight credit schedule and I actually need 3 credits so I don't have to overload my last quarter (I was going to investigate some distance learning options). IF I had been informed about this being a real class then I would only need 1 credit, not 3. It doesn't matter that I didn't register for the class, like they won't deny me access. Its problematic because I want the fucking credits. This is the email I would like to write.... "Hi Tim, Remember me? I emailed you back in February about CHID number something and you told me it wasn't relevant. Apparently it is though, and this whole thing is totally messing with my credits. IF I had known that this was actually a CLASS and not random meetings then I would have been saved some stress and it would facilitate my graduation. Thanks alot for not knowing what the hell is going on, I feel such a great sense of relief that you are in charge of all the CHID study abroad programs. You make European bureaucracy look extremely efficient and the French postal system and Italian airlines professional, courteous, expedient, logical, and above all helpful." (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 8th, 2008
9:59 am	there are spiders in all m brother's bathrooms, this has made it a very stressful weekend... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 25th, 2008
1:31 pm	All I want to do right now is dye my hair, get some more tattoos and make bad ass wedding cakes. Is that really too much to ask? Current Mood: sick (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 27th, 2008
10:14 pm	Scales Scale of 1-10 (1 being the least, 10 being the most) Fantastic-ness of the new Sushi Place: 9 Deliciousness (I can't believe thats a word/I spelled it correctly) of my breakfast at Beth's: 7.5 How obnoxious the girls were at the table next to us: 8 How much laundry I have to do: 6 Urgency to do said laundry: 6.5 Likelihood that I'll go to my one class tomorrow: 2 Desire for my ankle to be better: 10 Desire for my shin splints to go away: 10 Desire to sleep: 8 Fear for my midterm on Tuesday: 10.5 Amount that I have to read for said Midterm: 13 Amount of time that I have: 3 Amount of motivation: 3.5 Desire for it to be warm enough to tan: 9.5 Desire for a massage: 9 Desire to go to the gym: 7 Excitement for my fish: 11 Likelihood that I will go to sleep before properly reviewing my notes (my one goal for today, that I thought I could actually get done): 5 Attractiveness of Diego Luna (especially in Dirty Dancing 2): 15 Likelihood that I will spend too much money on buying dresses because I want it to be spring that badly: 12 Likelihood of me repeatedly going above the 1-10 scale: 30 Desire to be 21 right now: 9 Desire to go to bars: 4 Desire to go dancing: 20 Desire to dance again: 25 Desire to keep procrastinating: 19 Desire for tomorrow to be a full blown snow day: 8 Desire to travel: 25 Desire to know a helpful foreign language: 17 Likelihood that I will learn a helpful foreign language: 4.5 Shame in having spent most of my day watching/having on in the background either Dirty Dancing 1 or 2: 0 Likelihood that I may watch Center Stage tonight or tomorrow: 5 Fuck. time to go back to work. I ran out of scales. I'm open to suggestions, if you ever wanted to know how I feel about something I just might answer. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 26th, 2007
4:02 pm	So, I'm going to graduate from college in a year. One year. I will technically be a 2008 graduate. Scary huh? I have to admit that I really like the structure school provides. Its like a giant game that I've played for so long, that it is absolutely frightening to wonder what the world will be like afterwards. Let's not think about that though. O, and I have no idea whatsoever what I will do after I graduate. Seriously. None. I'm sure someone thinks that I have a leaning towards something. Well, that someone is foolish, I have absolutely no idea. But I'm going to do it. Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 12th, 2007
12:41 am	What I need... finals to be over my headache to go away laundry and cleaning to be done errands to be run and done to be home sunny beach sunny countryside lotr marathon fresh strawberries mandarin oranges warm Davis springtime in Davis my couch books and magazines a walk around the neighborhood christmas spirit my parents to fall head over heals in love with my tattoo divine intervention on my final tomorrow a trip to beths cafe (andrea you would love it and you wouldn't be able to finish) talent ambition drive sleep movement a dance party a frat party (minus the creepy anonymous guy factor, but with the anonymity factor) to be able to drink again to move on flowers affection adventure art inspiration a walk around the lake a warm day and a kayak movie night to know what I want a new bra as i have destroyed mine... shit this means I have to go to the most dreaded place in the world... the malll. fuuuuuckkkkk again for my headache to go away a makeover- completely (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:24 am	1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say? Well I would go back (yes go back) to my debate about what would be best for the world/jesus- abortion, adoption, or to raise the kid myself. Aborting jesus just seems like a bad call. Adoption is so iffy, if I could get him to Angelina and Brad then thats one thing, but what if he bounces around from pervy foster care to pervy foster care? Raising Jesus myself, well, am I really fit to raise Jesus? Things to think about. 2. When was the last time you flew in a plane? November, Cali 3. What did the last text message you sent say? I think it said "I have started studying yet, booze sounds good" 4. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex? kindness, compassion, sense of humor 5. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future? goals smoals. maybe not die 6. Shoe size? 8/8.5 7. Been to Mexico? No. 8. When is the last time you had a massage? Spring 9. What was the last TV show you watched? Family Guy 10. Where would you roadtrip to? Ugh. Davis to Santa Barbara, just cuz its purty. 11. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say? Who are you? 12. What is in the back seat of your car right now? Well the care that I drive at home... possible x-rays, golf and tennis stuff. 13. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? snoozing. 14. If you could marry any celebrity today who would it be? This is so though provoking, maybe Luke Wilson or Jon Stewart. No one hounded by paparazzi. But I think I would have a massive inferiority complex. 15. Have you ever been to a strip club? No, but oddly enough people have tried really hard to get me to go to one. 16. What is the last sporting event you watched? UW v. Cal football (suck it berkeley) 17. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on livejournal? serena 18. Ever go camping? yes and never again 19. What color is your watch? cell phone colored 20. Last phone call? Danni, it was good times 21. Are you allergic to anything? finals 22. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? i don't really like any of the shoes that I've been wearing lately. I like my flip flops comfort wise. But I also like my hooker heels, just for the effect. 23. What is one thing you have learned about life recently? small heating pads are not as effective as the large ones 24. Do you own an iPod? si. 25. Do any of your friends have children? legitimately no, illegitimately... possibly 26. Who was your last kiss? Jesus. (Really depends on how you want to classify this, but lets not go there. Needless to say as far as I'm concerned/ can recall it hasn't happened- remember kids drinking can be bad) 27. Do you have a scar? and how? several. I am clumsy and I like to surround myself with burny sharp things 28. Are you ticklish? Yes. 29. Ever cried for no reason? yes, but there are pills for that 30. Ever broken a bone? No. but i probably will now 31. Do you have any piercings? yes, several 32. Have you ever changed clothes while driving? i think so.... 33. Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit? i haven't had the pleasure 34. What was the last time you ate fast food Depends on how you define fast food... either friday at a chipotle type place or early november when i gorged at dicks 35. What is your favorite color to wear? black 36. What is the longest plane ride you have ever been on? Single plane ride would be australia to the states. Longest time spent between airports was between San Francisco and Rome, thanks new liquid security restriction scares. I love sitting in Heathrow for 7 hours, don't you? 37. What is the longest road trip you have ever taken? san diego? 38. What are your turn-offs? dane cook, prejudice, finals... to be quite honest the list is extensive 39. What was your first alcoholic beverage? Depends... accidentally had vodka as a child.... for social/fun? jolly rancher shots, because I'm classy 40. What was your last alcoholic beverage? rum and coke 41. What are you craving right now? mojitos and a dance party, maybe a little jack and coke Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 8th, 2007
12:37 pm	The toll of finals So for the past week+ I've been averaging 5 hours of sleep a night and I can feel some sort of disease coming on. So needless to say not so much fun. Last night I fell asleep at 830ish, probably closer to 9 by accident. And then I woke up around 330ish. I got some reading done and ended up falling asleep again around 730ish. Woke up for a random half hour and then slept until noonish. Now I know this is an intense amount of sleep, but keep in mind if someone gets seven hours of sleep over a week long period that is 49, if someone gets 5 thats 35. Thats a 14 hour difference. Plus if it holds off this inevitable sickness mayhap is worth it. However, I now feel behind in the work I have to get done.  Current Mood: sore Current Music: 1970s xmas cartoons, fantastic! (Comment on this)